Yeahhhh. I'm feeling pretty fucked over right now.

But I'm doing fine.

 I have all I need.

=)

thanks to you few, who put up with my shit constantly..
and those few who dont ignore me.
and.. i just love you guys.

mmmmmm.

i hate the smell of rank kids in the afternoon.

im not in that great of a mood, since three fingers of my right hand are now disabled, yeah. i was giving jeremy a ride, because he always does that for me, and he slammed my fingers in the door .yeah, he broke three fingers. at least i still have my right pointer finger though, broke the middle all the way to the pinkie.  so.   i type like shit.  but they gave me medication. yeahhhhh medication. and they have this pink thing around them right now, it sucks

Ok, So.

 I changed my Password, then  I forgot it.

So, No, I'm not ignoring your emails.

 annnd, I can't get on MSN? 

Sorry.

So, yeahhh.

What in the FUCK is wrong with me.  I screw up wayyyy too much. 

\\ This is just so wrong...

Today must be national " Make Ian kill himself" day. Oh, how could I forget

Today was shit.  A big pile of fucking shit.
Like it's gonna be for a long while. 
I'm depressed.

And, Vera. I would respond, but you blocked me. So I guess I'll just say it here.   Yeah, I'd actually do that,  I want to piss right on his desk, but yeahhhh, if you fuck up once, And get suspended, They won't let you walk.And, my mom has this big thing about wanting to see my graduation. I wouldn't mind getting it in the mail, but hey.

Yeah, I hate tuesdays.

 Fuckin' Tuesdays.

Okay, so I drove to school today, and I had the worst fucking road rage ever, It was horrible. I could so go for killing someone right now.

Fat black lady, tried to cut infront of me on the highway, but it just didn't work, so she's all trying to get next to me, reving her tore up shit's engine, and honking at me.  I wanted to make her go in the river, Yes I did.

But other than that, I guess I'm just angry today. I wish I had more to say, too, I just don't. Yeah, Today just sucsk.

But hey, it's a Friday.  I can go home and drink, and just not worry about things anymore. 

I was actually invited to go to a party on halloween.

We're supposed to dress up, so I'm going to make my costume.

I want to be a cactus.

oh, and the post key Sucks.

I feel very vulnerable. and ...and, I dunno.

Like I can just be taken advantage of, easily now.

But I'm apathetic.    & nbsp;  ._.

and confused

So, I've been prettttty much typing resume' s all day. Boring as hell, yep.

In other news, I completley forgot to bring a jacket today. My nipples are like bullets.

that's all I really have to say.

The people who write the little... I don't know,Things on the back of chips, and stuff.. have to be the dumbest fuckers ever. Lord Jesus.
I was reading a bag of Cheetos... And I was outraged. >> Seriously,
You think that with all the fatass americans out there, the Cheeto people make at least enough money to like...hire Stephen King or something, to write better fricken' poems on the back of their bags. Also, there should be better flavored condoms. tsh.
I'm supposed to be finishing this outline.. But I'd rather ramble on about Cheetos, Stephen King, and condoms. [loser.]

Maybe I do talk to much? I don't know. When I ramble, I do. And, Mostly when I'm hyper, ya? I talk fast and pointless. More so pointless.
Holy jeeze. My foot is asleep like crazy, and I really want to stick my pencil in my ankle. I can't even lift my foot up
Yeah.  I had to wear wet pants today, because I didn't have time to leave them in the dryer for any longer. Whoa.  I almost just  broke my ankle again.  Remind me not to stand up. -_-'
So, I'm in a aduueraefrf. I'm okay.Cold, but Okay.  Anyways, yeah.  I'm bored.  And, I ripped a page out of this book.....

.........I don't think I was supposed to.

Duna duna duna duna

    & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;     ;         & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;  batman.

I dressed up as a ghetto batman, once.  It was spiffy.

Well, I'm unusually happy today.  Soo.. I thought I'd ramble pointlessly in my blog about it.  ^_^

But I don't have much time to ramble, so here we go.

I'm taking on another language.Romanian. ( I get TWO credits for this shit. heck yes.) I'm not that far into it, and it's already confusing. Because I get mixed up... easily. But I'm doing okay with it =D

And, DayTripper7 made me laugh.  OMG, lyke.  I dun kno him but like, he maka me so mad  so I make pissy. and make a big deal about it. and post in my blog bcuz lyke im so hardcore. 7337  xD  Nah, she really doesn't type like that... I just felt like doing it. But she pretty much acts that way, though.  If she wasn't an insane bitch, she'd be awesome.

Annnnd.  ... thanks to my dear friend... I'm never eating beef. ever. ( Yeah,  you. xD)

So, yeah Today has been  I feel lightheaded now. and It's great.

See , kids?  You don't need drugs................ you just have to be clinically insane..

Today stunk, but I couldn't be any happier.

Why?  I don't know.

It's not drugs.. I swear. >>

But I feel.. like nothing matters anymore... and it's.. relaxing.

..Ohhh, and PS.

Im tired.

and Damned tired.

so.

Lets all have fun, and just curse in double negatives.

Listen, Listen, hon'

I am not the two faced and hypocritical one. Haha, no.
See, what happened with me, is.. A was a huge fucking idiot, and made a huge fucking mistake. I was being bitter. Huge. Fucking. Mistake.
And, yes. I Still love Nicole to death. I went overboard with being upset, and she didn't deserve me making her feel the way she did. I should have just told her how I felt, and then actually listened to her.  But I don't think anyone could say that they've never said/done anything that they didn't regret.  I don't know if Nicole will ever talk to me again or not. But that's my fault.

You, on the other hand.
You deserved it. I didn't do anything to you. at all. at . fucking. all.
If you hate arguing so much, why do YOU KEEP STARTING IT?
You keep trying to make meaningful comebacks to stick up for yourself..but in doing this you're missing the points. You don't understand that the reason we're fighting in the first place is because of you, sweetheart.
You know how many times you've "apologized"*? and Ended up doing the same shit, over and over?

* -   I put it in quotes because they were all probably just fake.  Just like you said.

See.  You're the hypocritical and two faced one.
I'm just the big, fuck-up idiot.

And no, I don't hate you.  I never could.

I'm just tired of your shit.

I should be asexual. Yep.

 It's always going to be fucked up.

"nuff said.

 Okay.

Let me state the obvious.

1. I don't care what your opinions are about me. Hear that? I DON'T CARE. Keep them to yourself.

2. Don't expect me to beg your forgiveness for something I didn't even do.

3. Don't expect me to be your friend when you're a pain in the fucking ass.

Oh, wow.

Lemme tell yous guys. about this wonderful lady.

Her name is Vera.   And she's ten times better than you. She's the BEST thing.. like. ever. ( yeah, yeah, that's right, fuck you sliced bread. -shakes fist-)

She's the most beautiful thing +  myyy bestestbestest friend.

Now, Now.  do me a favor, all you drooling boys and girls..

BACK UP OFF MY SHIT.

Thanks ^_^

I got in a fight with Peter, ya ya. Who cares.  I say this because I left you all of a sudden.  So, that's why.

Yeah.  I'm emotional. 
I don't want this, and .....I don't want this.

Take me to the hospital.

Emotionally Unstable.

Very. Unstable.

There's a gun in the car.

Let's go crack some skulls.

My pinkie hurts.

and its swollen

and hard to move.

and ow.

('s not broken, though.)

Yes, the school computers are very crappy, but they work.

( aka, at least tblog works.)

And, I can't use the home computer much, because Peter is home alot now.  And  he gets his vacation soon, too.

and, I feel shittttty.

So, this sucks hard. :D

Some say organized chaos is perfection. Well I say fuck the organization. Pure, hellistic chaos is where its at.

_{I don't like being lied to.}